every morning, i wake up feeling more and more like a nerd.
okay thats so totally awesome, i feel proud of myself!

did amath this morning before meeting jia and nic at barker carnival.
saw a few familiar faces, not everyone though
considering the fact that i had to leave by one cause i had tuition (*sad face sad face*)

i hope sa did well for her auditions!
she called me to tell me she saw ______.
and i got all excited,
but she refused to help me so we hung up haha.

tonight's going to be another studying night, i'm going to attempt study bio.
i know nothing about heredity.

firstly, i thought nathan's band was pretty good last night, congrats in achieving top three!(:

the only reason why i'm blogging is because sa and hannah said i should rant it all out here rather than repeating myself in school and making such weird noises which sound like a broken vehicle HAHAHA

note: if you don't like reading rants, then just leave. it would do you good(:

i am sick and tired of thinking so much.
every night it sucks not being able to sleep
and i'm sorry hannah for making you call me last night
that this morning you weren't even able to concentrate during amath.

i need friends, thats what i'm most dependent on.
and i'm proud to say that i've got awesome awesome friends!(:

it's been two whole weeks, and i have no idea why i'm still harping on it.
all the "what if"s and the "if only"s isn't helping at all.

you're super confusing,
and that kills the hell out of me.

well perhaps the other day you were drunk or something,
you didn't know what you were saying.
damn confusing i promise.
before i say anything else,
i need to confirm whatever i was told is true.
thank you sa(:
i hope she remembers to help me ask.

honestly, i give up thinking.
it's like you're moving on so damn fast
and i'm lagging behind just like some old computer.
haha bad analogy but whatsoever shit.

okay i forgot what i told hannah and sa during recess today,
it was funny though.
ahh damn damn damn damn pissing.
i need to get over this,
soooon.
actually, i think i'm over it.
just that i keep going back and forth,
call me stupid seriously.

okay i've ranted enough for the entire day.
chem lesson was fun anyway,
we drew _______ on our thumbs, hahaha.

sa's new name: poooooop! i likeee(:
pammy's gonna drop by later to collect her form, and download her music.
one day, i'm gonna get caught by the police.
and then, she'll be going to jail with me.
sounds so cool.
\

only the first week of school,
and i'm starting to freak out.
o levels in just four months,
and i'm still taking naps.
i need to stop sleeping,
and study instead.

i got my study plan for this week,
but it's not working out
cause i'm wasting time every afternoon,
sleeping.

how frustrating.

school = tiring.

but my week has been fine so far, too many good news(:

awesome friends, thank you very much:D

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

i cut my hair today,
and then after town, met hannah and luke at queenstown library cause sa was out with her mum and i couldn't return her chem textbook
i'm such a failure seriously, i fail to understand organic chemistry.
alkanes, alkenes, alcohol, i can't remember the last one.
hannah and luke came over after that.
"I WANT MY COOKIES" hahaha.

i need to pack for camp after this,
bowling camp, finally.




i get this feeling that there's more to say,
but i just don't know what
i'm so tired of trying to guess what you're thinking.
whatever it is,
it doesn't matter anymore does it?

ahh i love the oc&one tree hill soundtrack, it's really nice
okay today's been pretty productive.
so far, i've finished one full SCGS amath paper.
i have two more full amath papers to go before thursday comes,
wish me luck(:

i miss my friends already ):
holidays are ending
school's starting
homework all over again
tests too
more studying
okay enough ranting.

back to books, ahh hate organic chem.
i don't get anything about it.
it's gonna be my best friend when school reopens,
oh my how cool.


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cheryl; insignificantly significant. says (9:57 PM):
mother pressure

X / {RR} says (9:57 PM):
it's so.

X / {RR} says (9:57 PM):
gay.

cheryl; insignificantly significant. says (9:57 PM):
haha nah

cheryl; insignificantly significant. says (9:58 PM):
guys should go for such stuff too

cheryl; insignificantly significant. says (9:58 PM):
and maybe ever manicure and pedicures

cheryl; insignificantly significant. says (9:58 PM):
i mean

cheryl; insignificantly significant. says (9:58 PM):
they need to look good too right

cheryl; insignificantly significant. says (9:58 PM):
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hahahaha omg how funny.






Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to cry
So come on courage
Teach me to be shy

Dear Eunice and Shanise,
I promise i will invite you to every chalet alright?Then you will get to see your boyfriends ever again(:

I have the best friends ever, Thank God for that.
I'm honestly really happy tonight, for some reason, i was even smiling to myself or rather, the msn conversations.

My cousins made my sunday.
Mahjong, Badminton, Car Racer Thing..

Omg i love you all so much,
Thank You for being there(:

i wouldn't be able to blog till monday so i'll just blog right now,
okay you have no idea how excited i am cause today's friday
which means missy's missy,baba and jia are coming back from prefects' camp
OMG I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH.
HAPPY BELATED SWEET SIXTEEN JIA(:

i love friends, awesome friends i mean.
it's times like these where you can see who your true friends are,
those who really care,
those who want you to be happy.
they'd be there for you when you cry,
there to lend you a shoulder,
and they wouldn't even mind being on the line just to hear you rant.

there's no way i can express my love for all of you,
and how much i wanna thank everyone for cheering me up.

i've learnt to see things in a really positive way right now,
it doesn't matter how long or short,
what truly matters is that all this time,
it was worth it.
all the memories and special times we had together,
were insignificantly significant.

i feel just as terrible as you shanise ho,

i'll be here for you, these five words i swear to you.

SAM!oh boy you've gotta stay strong too alright?we'll get through this together yeah?(:

cheer up, i love you both.

it's all because i want the best for you and for me too, dont worry too much, i'll be just fine(:

so perfectly..

i've come to a conclusion.

there can only a winner,
never two,
never three,
only one.

i still want you back so damn much,
i still love you even though you don't feel the same way anymore.

i promise i would never wish to love again..

it's going to be long till we get out of this awkwardness,
in the meantime, i'll do something meaningful like study?
i've got lots of work to do, yes indeed, lots of studying too.
that'd help take my mind of you,
thank you very much my day late friend.
i'm just as confused as you are,
what the hell is going on?

i hate this so damn much, i hate to feel this way,
i can't help it.
i have nothing to look forward to because i know every single day's gonna suck all the same.
just tell me will you?
even though i know i'm not prepared for anything just yet.


i read shan's blog, hahaha there was this post which said,

"I feel terrible.




Dear Peter Pan,

Meet me at my window now.

xoxo"

ahhh i miss you shanise ho, i haven't seen you in a really long time
and and i miss missy's missy already! COME HOME SOON(:

i'm going to quote dawn,
"when you decide to love someone, go all out and love him with all your heart".

i'm so sick of pretending..
it's not going to end tonight,
i don't wanna drag it any longer

i hate friendster damn it,
i wanna be anti-friendster again pammy.

Hold your head high heavy heart.
So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it's the last you'll ever get.
If we don't take it, when will we make it?

perhaps this guessing game's gonna end today, tonight
well now i'm in confusion,
someone tell me whats going on please.

do you like playing the guessing game?
well if you say "YES", then good for you
but if you say "NO", then i'll tell you i hate it too.
i hate it so much damn it,
there's so much to say but i just don't know where to start.

i had a really good talk with grace today,
and i must say "Thank You" for preventing me from being such an insensitive bitch(:

Thank God for Friends like them(:

to be honest, i feel that i'm such a lousy friend and i'm sorry that sometimes things just don't go the way we want it.

well at least i had fun today with dawn shan hannah eunice and grace!we must must must do whatever we did today again alright!(:

hell yeah i love my friends, and now i think i'm sorta ungrounded?

and yes i agree with sa,

"insecurity and jealousy are the worst feelings any girl can deal with"

i have my friends to thank for making my day so totally awesome(:

Hannah, Sa, Pammee, Baba and Eunice for coming over to cheer me up
and Dawn for calling to say "SMILE!"

ahhh love you guys..



"but you're just not letting me in.."
i love one tree hill(:

whatever happened to "trust me it will".

i need my friends right now, it sucks staying at home with a damn headache

i had fun last night,
i had fun the night before last night,
my mum is officially cool.

she brought hannah shanise eunice and i to indochine on friday night with her friend.
and we had our non-alcoholic drinks while she had alcoholic drinks with her friend
omg so cool, so romantic, i wanna go again

sometimes life can be such a bitch,
having really late night talks with sa and alex over the phone just makes me happy all over again,
thanks guys i love you two so much (:

things might have been really different if i wasn't so selfish to keep everything to myself.