this entire year, i've neglected certain people and i'm very sorry about that. after watching one tree hill, it kinda woke me up to stop neglecting my friends. in this case, friends as in those i used to have heart-to-heart talks with. i haven't done that in a pretty long time, especially with amanda mak and zhen too(:

i'm sorrry!! i guess we're all really busy with our preparation for our mid years now right? maybe after our mid years, i'll have a good talk with the two of you :D

and here's something i found really interesting on amanda mak's blog(:

HATE
hate. whats its definition?
a feeling of dislike. or anger?
or maybe a feeling of jealousy?
envy, confusion or even admiration?
or maybe longing and wanting.
something so near yet so unattainable.
so close yet still remains a secret.
an unconscious feeling of hate.
aboration.a thin line separates this feelings.

what is love,
what is hate.
its true. the more you hate someone,its only cause you love him or her.
true hate can only come from love.
true hate can only come from a relationship,
so close, so carefully built,
yet so carelessly kicked down.
so miserable. so much ignored.
true hate exists in a relationship so loving.
when two people truly understand each other.
its easy to take this for granted.

HATE.
easily comes when there is too much love
.when you subconsiously know that you cannot love.
when you cannot give out anymore of your feelings.
when you are afraid of finding yourself in love.
this is when hate comes in.
it tries to take the place of love.
the love that is in your heart.
it tries to cousume you.
to overwrite the overwhelming love.
to find faults of the person.
then find a way to hate the person.
this is an undefined definition of hate.

hate.
its also jealousy.
jealous and envious of someone thats better.
more accomplished or more blessed.
jealousy cos they took what you desired.
because you love.
hence you hate.you want.
yet cannot attain.
hence you hate.
you feel the pain. so you hate.
you hate those who caused it.
ther person that you love.
the person that is loved.
you blame them. for your pling.
just cause
you desire to be loved.
by the person you love.


from love, it turns to hate
no wonder love-hate relationships exist,
wow(: