i wanted so much to say;
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Monday, May 15, 2006
11:24 PM
if you think it's my fault because i couldn't bring myself to do whatever i really wanted to do, then i cannot do anything about it anymore. although i felt so much to put the past behind, i couldn't do so. the thought just kept haunting me as if it was some ghost or something.because you were my best friend, i was so willing to forgive you till i found out that you lied again. for goodness sake, will you just stop lying? were those fake cries? for just sympathy? just come clean with it, confess everything you have been keeping from me. i don't wish to just break that circle cause of one stupid person but i don't blame you.all i wish to know is that "why of all people who liked you, you had to choose that one?" you knew everything about me at that point of time, but why did you continue with it? were you just like angry or pissed off with me or something that you wanted to seek revenge this way? i don't hate you or anything but i just need this period of time to really cool down and get over every single thing. it's just like, everything is just dumped in front of me. the world just collapsed on me, everything is just coming as though it's no one's business. yeah cause, it's mine and it doesn't concern others. others can't help me, only i can. i'm just so stressed out over what has been happening. bowling,work,band and everything else. i really have nothing further to say because maybe tomorrow something would just be dumped in front of me and i'll be stressed out more.please, can you just understand what i'm going through now because i seriously cannot handle so many blows at one go. just leave me alone and i guess things would be better once everything has been settled. and i mean every single thing, not just the problems that are concerning you and me. i'm just so amazed by the number of people who have been so concerned about how i'm feeling. imagine going to school and someone hugging you asking "(Name), are you okay?"i felt so loved, touched by what others said. like seriously, if it werent for people likehannah,sa,shan,alex,keith,dawn,iris,eunice,grace,jiahui,char,pammee,
chow,elvina, hyung,tau,amanda,michelle,shiyou and many others who really cared so much, i wouldn't be strong enough to even turn up for school today or even stop all those drops of sorrows.shououts:mak: yes dear, i've heard it. thanks alot <3>
nat&chinglee: oh hello! (:
iris: umm. what happiness is so fake? please, i cannot always be crying yes?
