oh baby, i'm missing you;
♥
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
10:19 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IRIS MY DEAR SWEETTIE, ITS YOUR 15TH BIRTHDAY. I LOVE YOU <3 i was just looking at the OBS photos on others' blogs and they made me realise how much i miss obs. it's really fun getting to know everyone you never knew you could talk to, and getting closer to those you were alr close.
and now, i miss FAT NAT ): she wrote an encouragement note behind my picture and it almost brought me to tears. okay, today was a fine fine day. had a math with Mrs Gan in the morning before having Bio at 12 instead of 11.30 cause Mrs Cheong gave us time to eat.haha, isnt she nice? :D and after that, i hanged out with Shan and Hannah before going home. ): i'm going out tomorrow, and then training at night! whooots, it'll be fun. and i hope my ankle doesnt erupt again. hahaha. DECEMBER BABY.This straight-up means ur the most good-lookingperson possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitivein everything. Active in games and interactions.Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential inorganizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,yet complicated to know. Easily influenced bykindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds.loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.i promise this is so true about me :D
i miss you;
♥
Monday, May 29, 2006
10:34 AM
family day thing at warren yesterday and i was there the whole day from 9. i would like to say that the bowling alley is the most frequent place i visited. hahaha. i kept going in and out, and with that injured ankle, it was so hard to walk but ohwellls, i can walk normally already.
seeing my cousins made everything fun :D hahaha, and we took photos. hahaha.
came home for dinner and then i iced my leg listening to some "doctor". and i promised my leg went in and out of the bucket cause it was so cold and it hurt so much. it was like something biting and it wasn't just your ankle hurting, but your whole leg would feel it too cause it's all connected.
and i fell asleep before 12 last night, how good is that. look how tired i was :D
i love you amanda <3
shououts:
amanda: haha, yes yes. i've visited your blog but where are the navigations?! :D
ryan: uhh, haha. hello?
cassandra: hey jie! :D haha, i'm fine. alright! i'll relink you soon (:
i'll keep you my dirty little secret;
♥
Saturday, May 27, 2006
6:15 PM
it has been so many days since i last blogged!
and i'm proud to say that i survived OBS :D:D:D it was really fun getting closer to the environment as well as getting to know your friends better especially those you weren't close to; not that i'm very close to them now but at least, i know they're fun and loving people :D i was so home sick on the second night because of the no toilet and it was so hot and stuffy in the tents we camped in. but it felt too good when everyone was so concerned about that stupid stomachache i had on the second night and as well as people staying up late with me to watch the beach, the stars, the night sky. actually, we were supposed to watch the kayaks and the boats, refraining them from getting stolen and yeah, i didnt want to go back into that stuffy tent to sleep so i stayed out feeling the cool breeze :D and guess who my kayaking partner was! GRACE AIK. okay firstly, i thought i was going to have some communication problems with her being such a D character and everything but in the end, both of us got close instead without any quarrels. like when she wasnt well, i kayaked alone to bring her to the instructor's speed boat for medication and stuff and when i was tired, she kayaked for me. how sweet yes? :D overall, i loved everyone although we had those conflicts and everything but yes, i enjoyed the whole thing :D it was so fun even though i had to go home with that injured ankle of mine. because i lost my shoe in the soft mud which felt like quicksand, walking barefooted and hopping. it was seriously a long story how i injured it but haha, the fun feeling is just so undescriable. (: i wouldn't want to make my post too long and one sentence to just summarise everything up.
OBS WAS SO FUN THAT WE DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE IN THE END BUT WE HAD TO.
26th May finally came, the day that everyone had been waiting for. LOVE MG.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAYI! <3
okay time really passed so fast that yeah, everyone started coming in at 7.15 and everything. and we were so nervous waiting for Dawn Fung to end her speech and we started. everything was so smooth-sailing and we were so happpy that we did it! with GOD watching us as he shined <3
it was a great night, and now, i'm missing band practices. i want band practice tmr! ): but we'll have our post love mg gathering on Friday yes? :D:D
i want to thank everyone who came for LOVE MG last night especially those who were so tired out from OBS. THANK YOU (:
today, i went shopping. whooots, i bought earrings and necklaces :D they're so pretty.
and i wonder whats left for me to do during the remaining time of the day.
shououts:
Shiyou: yes, i did have fun at OBS with GOD seeing me through every activity i took part in <3
taugay: haha, it's alright (:
somewhere somehow;
♥
Friday, May 19, 2006
7:12 PM
i THANK GOD that term 2 is finally over, like seriously, this is the day i've been waiting for. school's over now, but guess what? we still have got to do homework and pass them up on Monday like oh sheesh? thursday and friday, hmms. there's nothing much i can say but i've been super high these two days. well, maybe because school is ending! :D:D:D next week is OBS and i admit, i'm not excited at all but instead afraid. i don't wanna go for OBS, cause i wanna practise for LOVE MG. everything clashes! AHHHHH.. oh shuush it. oh no, i'm gonna miss everyone. ):ohohohno, I NEED TO GO FOR OBS SHOOPPPPING SOMEDAY EITHER TOMORROW OR SUNDAY! :D:D:D
we're just buttons;
♥
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
9:56 PM
i have nothing to say but this is how i laugh, HAHAHAHA :Dim just too high tonight to even get low. (: shououts:LALALA: i dont know how many lalala you have but uhh, i know who you are. nictong: EH YOU IDIOT. WHY YOU TAG SO MUCH TILL I CAN'T SEE LALALA'S TAG ANYMORE! you poot luh. i was there ytd too! but i was there for lunch. like from 11 to 12 plus? yeah. i have tests this week. history and social studies, and im done with everything. im having interhouse bowling at OCC tomorrow. come visit! :D wait, i know you're retarded! :D :D:D i know you enjoy spamming tong, but not too many yes? :D:D mak: hahaha, i love you too amanda. <3>
zhen: hahaha, okay i don't think. but i thought. oh no! i havent tried it out, but i will like after i blog :D
blame it on the weatherman;
♥
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
4:51 PM
i would first like to say,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PETRINA QUEK! <3
oh yes my Primary One Best Friend, i would never forget the fun times we had together although there weren't many, especially WHIPPED CREAM :D
i'm oh so tired from band practice today. we finally got everything done :D:D:D oh my goodness, i feel so happpy. now, i need to practise on my own and then we'll be all ready for rehearsal on sunday! (:
cheryl lunched at kap today. whoots :D char,eunice,dawn, hannah,pammee,chow,jiahui and then i joined them later :D then chow left. pammee and jia went to another table to discuss some camp stuff. leaving char,eunice,hannah and i. then dawn came.
i'm really amused by the things dawn and hannah can do to make all of us laugh! haha. listening to ipod on one ear and doing actions, adding words to suit the rhythm. haha. oh my goodness, the video is super funny. eunice,char and i kept laughing. i was so funny till i couldn't stop laughing. huierh joined us. and then left with char. eunice and i laughed even more, like seriously, dawn and hannah are super funny people. they cheer you up when you're down, but i can't cheer them up when they're down. not for dawn, but for hannah (: but i love you anyway <3>
today was fun fun fun! but for now, i have to bathe and study for social studies test tomorrow. ):
i wanted so much to say;
♥
Monday, May 15, 2006
11:24 PM
if you think it's my fault because i couldn't bring myself to do whatever i really wanted to do, then i cannot do anything about it anymore. although i felt so much to put the past behind, i couldn't do so. the thought just kept haunting me as if it was some ghost or something.
because you were my best friend, i was so willing to forgive you till i found out that you lied again. for goodness sake, will you just stop lying? were those fake cries? for just sympathy? just come clean with it, confess everything you have been keeping from me.
i don't wish to just break that circle cause of one stupid person but i don't blame you.
all i wish to know is that "why of all people who liked you, you had to choose that one?" you knew everything about me at that point of time, but why did you continue with it? were you just like angry or pissed off with me or something that you wanted to seek revenge this way?
i don't hate you or anything but i just need this period of time to really cool down and get over every single thing. it's just like, everything is just dumped in front of me. the world just collapsed on me, everything is just coming as though it's no one's business. yeah cause, it's mine and it doesn't concern others. others can't help me, only i can. i'm just so stressed out over what has been happening. bowling,work,band and everything else. i really have nothing further to say because maybe tomorrow something would just be dumped in front of me and i'll be stressed out more.
please, can you just understand what i'm going through now because i seriously cannot handle so many blows at one go.
just leave me alone and i guess things would be better once everything has been settled. and i mean every single thing, not just the problems that are concerning you and me.
i'm just so amazed by the number of people who have been so concerned about how i'm feeling. imagine going to school and someone hugging you asking "(Name), are you okay?"
i felt so loved, touched by what others said. like seriously, if it werent for people like
hannah,sa,shan,alex,keith,dawn,iris,eunice,grace,jiahui,char,pammee,
chow,elvina, hyung,tau,amanda,michelle,shiyou and many others who really cared so much,
i wouldn't be strong enough to even turn up for school today or
even stop all those drops of sorrows.
shououts:
mak: yes dear, i've heard it. thanks alot <3>
nat&chinglee: oh hello! (:
iris: umm. what happiness is so fake? please, i cannot always be crying yes?
and like the stars above;
♥
Sunday, May 14, 2006
11:43 AM
telling people that i'm ignoring you and everything isn't going to help, because you don't even know why i'm ignoring you in the first place.
you said you knew the consequences, but why are you so weak now? shouldn't you be stronger?
i've given you the best that anyone could give. i gave you everything you wanted, everything you loved, but why?
were we really best friends? we were drifting apart i know, but i never knew it would turn out this way.
i know you are feeling really bad about this, but is it all a lie? i really cannot tell whats going on in your mind at this point of time.
well if you think whatever i've done makes me a bitch, then i would seriously have nothing to say anymore.
shououts:
grace: you didnt have to say anything in the first place what.
michelle: hahaha, alrighties. thanks my dear crazy senior. <3
taugay: you're weird, but anyway, HI TAUGAY. (:
shiyou: i love you too <3>
JIAA: haha, worry about what? look how happy i am :D :D :D :D :D
make that look so good;
♥
Saturday, May 13, 2006
12:27 PM
i had to take that bittersweet medicine to numb that unbearable pain of the injection.
♥
Friday, May 12, 2006
9:39 PM
perhaps i was not a friend to you; if i was regarded as a friend to you, you wouldn't have done such things.
thanks a lot but today, i lost a friend.
just leave me alone.
it was the last thing that i wanted to hear;
♥ 6:40 PM
she faced four concrete walls upon stepping into that empty room of hers. she asked GOD why things were that way. she might have thought there would be a possibility, but it was definitely the last on that list she had.
you were her best friend, both of you shared secrets with each other. but did you treasure that friendship you had with her? apparently, the answer is no. youtook everything for granted, thinking it would be alright to carry on doing whatever shit you had wanted to do but in the end, you didn't benefit much. she wondered how tomorrow's going to be like. maybe, she wouldn't wait till tomorrow; probably one hour is enough? anything can change, nothing is impossible.
how would things be if time were to take the both of you back? would you repeat every single mistake you have made? i hope you wouldn't. well she may not be your best friend but to me, i guess you were her best friend. someone who she thought she could trust and love as a friend, but today, she realised you weren't the right one. everything she knew about you was just purely a mask over your face; it was all an act.
you have experienced the nasty taste of some really pretty girl stealing the person you liked most but why did you do it to her? after all that has happened, she doesnt blame you. insecurity was what she never wanted in a friendship but somehow, she felt it.
all she's asking now is for you to tell her everything you've been keeping from her, even if it's going to hurt her really badly.
i'm sure things are going to be better after you've confessed everything to her.
i just don't love you no more;
♥
Thursday, May 11, 2006
10:36 PM
frankly speaking, i've never expected you to be the one. it was probably the fact that you were my best friend, everything that happened in my life, i would have told you. &now, when things turn out this way, i have nothing to say.
if you weren't the one, i wouldn't have cared. you were my best friend, and it felt so much worst.
i'm emotionless, speechless. just leave me alone tonight.
i waited so long for just one word from you;
♥
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
10:42 PM
today was ultimately fun fun fun! :D having breakfast at kap is really cool, cause there isn't many people. touring round the whole of bukit timah and pandan valley really made my day <3>
there's e math test tomorrow, and i don't feel prepared even though i've studied. i hope they don't ask us to draw tangents, i'l probably fail it.
but for now, i'm fine without you.
shououts:
shiyou: oh you're welcome! you ought to receive a BIG shoutout from me on your birthday <3
we could have one more shot;
♥
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
9:02 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIYOU! <3
holiday tomorrow, OH YEAH. two holidays this week :D i was so tired during school today that i coud barely open my eyes during chem; so zhijing and i went to the toilet but water didnt seem to work. HAHAHA.
i went out with my dear boyfriend and sweetie 2 today! we watched take the lead, oh my it's so cool. tomorrow's going to be a cool day, hmms i must say, i hope.
"i really wonder why i get happy at the slightest benefit".
and i sing this song just for you;
♥
Monday, May 08, 2006
6:19 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNAH DEAR. <3
song tracks are being played while memories run through my train of thoughts. it wasn't easy for me to break that railway. just when i'm alone and need someone to talk to, you're never there. that lonely feeling i felt was terrifying. it's as if someone who was afraid of the dark and was stuck in the lift. perhaps if i took the other path, things would have been better. i'll take a very long time to reach the end of it; but i'm sure after some time, it'll fade away. i just knew that it was all wrong in the first place. regretting isn't going to change the fact that we've drifted away.
i don't understand the fact why people love to be bootlickers. seriously, it aint gonna do you any good. at the same time, you neglect your close friends and only turn to them when those cool friends of yours have left you behind. think about it, it isn't fair to those close friends of yours.
if you're reading this, i think we shouldn't be ignoring each other anymore but just be friends and forget the unhappy past which should have been thrown into the sea; never be found again. i'm glad that i've finally sorted out my thoughts. (:
shououts:
shiyou:yes i am &i'll definitely get close to GOD :D <3>
amanda mak: hahaha, thanks dear. to support me and GOD yes? :D ilove you so much <3>
my beautiful letdown;
♥
Sunday, May 07, 2006
7:56 PM
i loved today. it wasn't any ordinary day :D i went out in the morning with mum, dad and cherlyn to settle some stuff before having lunch at wistma and then SHOPPING (: i bought two nice tops from FOX today! <3>
hannah met up with elvina, so sa and i went shoppping! from taka to wistma to far east plaza. hahaha, it was so fun! :D shopping at far east is really fun. cause there are too many lovely shops which makes you go round and round; here we go again. they sell really nice clothes there. BUS STOP, my next shop i'm going to. RED too. i saw this top, which was really nice and sa agreed with me! the only thing i spent on was earrings. i bought like um, three earrings at one go. same design, different colour :D white, pink and silver! band practice was tiring, it seriously drained me but i finally got the tune. and i'm doing fine! so people, come for love mg :D
shoutouts:
dawn: you were with your mother what. MOTHER AND DAUGHTER OUTING! cheryl cannot interfere :D
vera: hahaha, hello <3
you took my heart and put it back together again;
♥
Saturday, May 06, 2006
10:32 AM
i just dislike the fact that you're so selfish and want everything to yourself. stop telling lies, just tell me.
the minute you start questioning, it's so obvious that you don't even frigging trust me at all. please, stop all your nonsense of saying you do when you don't at all.
now just let me ask you one simple question, &i'm sure you would say no.
shououts:
dawn: it's alright. okay, we'll talk talk talk about it. this is so exciting :D
aggy: hahaha. i know you didn't tell the names. cause in the first place, you don't even know who they are! hahaha. it's alright, i forgive you dear. <3
the ultimate you;
♥
Thursday, May 04, 2006
11:10 PM
WHOOPSIES AND POOPSIES <3>
i love and hate days like these. i seriously have drastic mood swings. now, i'm high after my sad moments.
shououts:
shiyou: hahaha. nopes, you didnt. thanks a lot. DO WELL FOR MID YEARS YEAH! <3
and when the storm's raging outside;
♥
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
9:17 PM
i'm almost done studying with lit. and im done with chem! :D scene 7 is what i've got left. the scene which Lady Macbeth instigates Macbeth to kill Duncan because he was too ambitious.
this scene really makes sense; it's really dumb of Macbeth to kill Duncan just because he was too ambitious and wanted the throne and power. that twinge of jealousy i felt today was totally horrible. too many things i wish to say, but i don't dare. whatever i've just seen, it totally turned my world upside down. i've cried buckets full, enough is enough. i don't wish to say any further. i tell myself that things are gonna be alright or maybe just leave everything into GOD's hands because only HE can do everything. i share my burdens with him. in the end, i still bother and care about it. perhaps, i'm really too paranoid. i have nothing to say, i cant even tell my own feelings.
for a while, i'll be just right. i'll be fine, every single thing.but after a short period of time, everything changes to what they used to be. those feelings i never wanted came back. i realised, i havent thrown them away yet. the day that i'm gonna throw them away will come soon, it's just a matter of time.
shoutouts:
alex: i have problems with a math and chinese too. don't ask me. chem, i think i'm alright. ohwells, i'm afraid for my test tomorrow. good luck for mid years! :D
shiyou: yes, my sister was freaked out cause she has never seen you before. and thanks for telling me she went to kap without permission again.
iris: i dont laugh at everything okay.i laugh at things which i find are funny and thats not everything. iLOVEyoutoo. we need a good talk <3>
mich: you never come to my blog one leh! :D anyway, HELLO MICHELLE. and why are you on the computer? you should be studying! <3>
shiyou and mich:anyway, good luck for mid years <3>
every heartbeat speaks your name;
♥
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
10:46 PM
an awfully wonderful day indeed. too many things to say, i have no idea how to start this post. well, new timetable today. i wonder i wonder how im gonna survive in two periods of chemistry on wednesdays. ): i was darn tired in the morning, but after recess, i was all well and active! i was able to respond in bio lesson today. which means, it's great inprovement cause i never listened in class. now, im gonna make an effort to listen and do well in my next test.
A-math was the disastrous one, i failed ): the word used is IF ONLY i wasnt careless, i would have passed. at least, with a B3. my goals now, are to get B3 for every subject. at least a B luh. but for chinese, i think i'll aim for like a lower grade. sighsigh, chinese test today. it was darn hard. i prayed so hard to finish my paper, and i did. THANK GOD (:
i studied chemistry today! and i finally memorised the formulae. i think chem is easy, only that i need more practice.the only thing im not sure of is how to go about doing the question. i know how to calculate and everything. but i cant memorise the steps, which means the whole the mole concept. it's hard, but practice makes perfect :D
mid-years tomorrow for some people. i wanna wish them GOOD LUCK.
shououts:
char: eh, i said you were good and you say you're not. i see. i slept till like 9? hahaha. i went home and slept like a pig too, like three hours? :D
mag: it's not that there are no shoutouts for you. they're replies for my tagboard. so that means, you never tag me luh. but i love you anyway <3
if i ain't got you;
♥
Monday, May 01, 2006
6:51 PM
i went out yesterday! and it was so fun. oh my, i nearly cried laughing. we went for watch the 11.10 AM show for aquamarine, and it was nice. funny funny, really funny. i laughed like shit. and then we went to have lunch at yoshinoya. we talked, talk talk talk about ______ and subject combinations. we went to wistma and then back to heeren! :D walked around and obviously, we didnt get much or rather, nothing. we didnt get anything, and here's the best part. we went to starbucks! :D amanda got ice blended chocolate for us.
amanda: eh, what do you all want?
petrina: cheryl! hurry say thank you!
cheryl: huh?
petrina: amanda is treating us!
hahaha, i was like wth? she's so funnny. oh, here's another thing petrina said which seriously made me laugh.
cheryl: oh, i was talking to grace and telling her we could get whipped cream for the stayover later and have fun with it.
petrina: oh, later you tell grace this. " i went to cold storage but i couldn't find whipped cream so i brought my father's razer cream"
oh my goodness, i laughed so hard i nearly cried and fell off the chair. then amanda and petrina was like, eh not funny anymore. why are you still laughing? super funny.
i was late for practice, how bad was that. the sleepover was so so so fun! oh my goodness! :D
we had prayer walk from 730 to 930. and after that, we jammed and had cake and everything before going out for late night supper at 11.45 and only came back to school at 12 plus close to one.
we bathed before going back to the audi. we jammed till like 2 plus? with drums okay. imagine if we had neighbours next to us, they'll probably complain. i slept at 3 cause i had to get at least a few hours of sleep so i could last for my sister's birthday lunch.
well, sa char joce and huihui didnt sleep until like much later. around 5 or 6 plus. char didnt sleep at all, she's so good. she left at 7. yeah. i wonder what char is doing now. sleeping? :D anyway, the sleepover was really fun. we should have more of those sleepover often!
birthday lunch was good, the food was good and everything. we lunched at safra tampines and i fell asleep straight after lying on the bed.
i went back, back to where we actually started.
i remembered those words you said to me,
so clearly that it seemed like yesterday.
maybe it didn't last long,
cause i walked the wrong path;
in not telling you the truth,
but lying to you instead.
shououts:
sweetie 2: hahaha, it was funny. iloveyousweetietwo. <3
xingting: i wonder i wonder i wonder who's singing! hi xingting! :D
dawn: we should have a class party soon, so we could all eat cheryl's nice brownies :D
