the tears i've cried;
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Friday, March 17, 2006
4:45 PM
sometimes when you're free, you'll look back and reflect on what you've done; i've realised that i've not studied this whole holiday now that it's already friday. but thats not the point, i'm talking about friendship or rather, relationships. close relationships turning into sour ones. some may know what i'm talking about, some don't. whatever it is, dont get pissed with anyone. if there's something wrong between two of you,work it out. don't keep it in there, don't regret. there are so many things i would like to say, but the people who i want to talk to wouldnt hear me out. my explanations arent effective, they dont even want to hear them. it's pointless. there arent much communication, or maybe there's really nothing to say. sometimes, i feel that i can't pour everything out to you although you may be my relative. is this the way my life was meant to be? false assumptions you make, thinking that i wouldn't mind but it hurt so much. i just had to know what was going on. after reflecting, i realised that i have many people who i would like to talk to and reconcile with. there's no point quarrelling over some stupid reason or maybe there isn't any reason. perhaps, a misunderstanding. they are unavoidable. the four walls i turn to every night, thinking about what my day will be tomorrow. but it never end up good. even if it did, the next day would be bad. i wonder how many people i've talked about, it's countless. insecurity is what everyone fears. probably most, not all. even within your own family members, you can't trust anyone. sometimes, ignoring could be the best solution. but you can't always use that method, you cant escape. honestly speaking, i really miss talking to you. i'm not referring to one, but all. something is just missing. and this is all caused because of one word, attitude.
