it started off well, ended off bitter. i guess what i'm going through now is something that is part of GOD's plan. he wants to make me stronger. & i will believe in him, he's my only best friend. i thought i was okay, but i was just living in a world of self-denial. i think guys are really ridiculous. they think of the world's most disgusting things. especially if they take biology in sec.three. HAHAHA.

dawn messaged me today. so did alex. asking about ______. i wonder what happened to sa. ): i havent talked to her so far this day. i want my pretty nice dramatic conversations i used to have, but i know it's impossible now. everything has changed, our group of friends and lives. it's all different, we cant slack anymore ; but more freedom is given. i need someone who i can talk to really badly now. bottling them all in there isnt going to help much, but instead i'll be worst.

ALL THE WAY MG BOWLERS, we can do it :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIAN KIM, HYUNG AND MY DOG, FLUFFY <3>

i never knew alex would read my blog and haha, he did. anyway, i'm gonna say something nice to a few people who has really changed my life. dawn,sa and hannah. frankly speaking, i never knew i would be THAT close to you three. &knowing about our crazy boy drama is super fun. okay, lets form the fours. perfect squares :D and getting to know alex and keith made my life more interesting cause i get lots of information from them. HAHAHA. he's an asshole. hehehe, okay inside joke once again :D

i really want to say a BIG THANK YOU to five of you.

if it wasnt for all your funny jokes and everything, nothing would have cheered me up. &sorry if i scared you all that day. HAHA, i went oh shit, i'm so scared. &apparently, everyone got scared. hehehe. the next day, everyone messaged me asking if i was alright. please, dont make me sound so suicidal. but thanks anyways. (:
all these came from my heart okay! don't say i'm kidding. no more cats. hurhur. i think the funniest thing i've ever heard someone said was, " i'm comforted already and that's because i sat in a comfort cab". that was quoted from keith tan. that was plain rubbish, i promise.

today started off fun. i really wanted to do free writing and mrs leong gave us this assignment which needed us to write. so it became free writing, but in a group this time (: dawn, shan, vanessa, delia and i formed our nice group of five! :D we went to the netball court to sit, watching 3O and 3T do P.E. they ran, and we cheered them on. whooots. then some 3T people surrounded us, and asked us what we were doing. HAHA.

we told mr ong that we were writing about him and not of the skies! haha. wondering what would happen to the sky soon because mr ong was there. once they saw mr ong, they would gather more dark and black clouds which would bring about a thunderstorm. hehehehe, we were mean but ohwells we had fun.

another thing happened today! e math lesson. super funnny. miss tang asked dawn to choose people to do part A to part E of the math worksheet. here's the conversation.

miss tang: dawn, a is for..?

dawn: ALEX! *class laughs loudly*

miss tang: huh? someone from our class please.

dawn: vanessa!

vanessa: DAWN CHIK! what did you just say?

and everyone laughs cause apparently, sa wasnt listening and she had to ask what happened. HAHAHA.

here's the second part.

miss tang: dawn, c is for..?

dawn: FAT CHOW! *some laughs*

miss tang: okay, never mind i dont know who that is.

&miss tang carried on with her lesson. that was super hilarious i promise. especially the ALEX thing. HAHAHAHAHA.

training today was quite goood. we had fun, oh yeah. chinese lesson was so funny yesteday. oh my, i nearly died laughing. it was only dawn and i laughing the loudest. when the whole class is so quiet and doing their work.

imagine this okay. the class is quiet and all of a sudden there's this really loud laughter! hahaha. it's all about STEWPETE :D inside joke. HAHAHAHA.

i received bad news and i failed a math test. by two blooody marks. ):

bad bad bad day. maybe it's because of a CAT :D inside joke. HAHA.

stop lying to me, you stupid fool. HAHAHAHA :D okayokay, inside joke.

ohwells. doubles today, i screamed till my stomach was super painful. haha. lizhen and i screamed shout yell, hiyah whatever like super loud. &you overpowered 5 to 6 people. HAHAHAHA. cool right? :D

alrightalright, digress. PE today was super tiring. bloooody ____ pinpointed me. like freak, whats her problem? the blooody thing landed on my finger and now i have a bruise. wth. and she say what, i'm too fragile. medicine ball can, it's like what 2 KG? of course it'll be painful luh. BLOOODY SHIT.

i realised that i have really good friends around me who will always be there for me. thank you to shan, dawn, hannah and sa who were there for me this morning. if not, i would have really broke down really badly. &shan, next time dont hug me. cause everyone would follow. i couldnt breathe okay. until i had to scream at your ears, then you finally let go of me. i know you missed me today, i left early. HAHAHA :D i missed you too (: chapel today was quite funny, everything was to SA. hahahaha. hmmms, i wonder why! :D

after doubles, i came home. ): ohoh, let me tell you something. i think someone's scared of me. i stand there, she dare not look up; at the same time, she couldnt bowl well. like HAHAHAHA. so funny. and that other girl, ohmy. a bimbo. okay, cheryl doesnt like bimbos. you're just too NOT PRETTY but you think you are. stop being like _____. i shall buy you a mirror, but too bad i dont know you personally. and apparently, APPLE cried. i was laughing like shit. HAHAHA. okay, i'm saddistic. &zhen told me she was guilty. HAHAHAHA. wth. i was like, oh yeah because of? okay, never mind. i shant carry on.

i'm gonna study later. i shall study bio :D imissmydearboyfriend MAGDALENE HO, iloveyou! <3

i recall back and thought about what happened last night. if things were to be normal again, it'll be good. i know it wouldnt be 100% normal.&i'm sure about that. the past may not be ranked up, but it would still be there; probably untouched till later.

after all that has happened, we've drifted apart. don't deny that fact, it's true. look back and think of the nov/dec holidays. it was way better than what we are now. but that was then, it cant change anything.

honeslty speaking, i never knew you would EVER read my blog. i took it for granted, but i realised i was wrong yesterday. those harsh words hit so hard, it turned my whole world upside down. there's a confession i wish to make and it's that i was really freaking out last night, &i didnt know how to reply. i wanted so much to pour it all out, but i couldn't. it's just bottled up in there. some things just can't be said because it'll hurt either one; or even cause more trouble. i can't get rid of that whole conversation from my mind, it's bothering me so much. perhaps, we'll be the best of friends in the coming future or just be friends, not close friends but we just know each other by name. i just need some time to reflect on what i have done to myself. but anyway, i'm sorry.

i'm lost, confused. i've already did whatever i could; and i've decided to leave the rest into GOD's hands cause i'm sure he'll do something about this.

there are people out there who are feeling the same way, maybe not the same situation as me. but to those out there, i'm just a call away :D &leave everything into GOD's hands because you've already did everything you could. don't be so sad anymore alright. i hope you see this, but never mind if you don't. i'll tell you tomorrow. remember, call me when you think of ____ iloveyousomuchdear. <3

there's nothing on my mind now. it was all a misunderstanding. &im glad we had that talk.

it has accumulated, &i'm not proud to say that everything came out as if i was vomitting. i wouldn't deny that i missed you hell lot, but i know i cannot talk to you. that is the only way to make me not think of you. but i'm just sorry that i've wronged you.

i was on the phone with shan just now. hahaha. super funny :D she was laughing so hard when she heard something. HAHAHA. you know what it is. HEHEHE. i miss MAGdonals. ): someone bring her to me, i need to hug her so badly. or maybe someone else hug-able (:

cheryl needs lots of chocolates. &according to miss agnes lim, chocolates are good for depression. HAHAHAHAHA.

i think i had the best day of my life today. whoooots. FROM MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS TO ANIMALS. wide range, but who cares. we had lots of fun! :D

sometimes i think how word gets round so fast in THAT SCHOOL. please, what has been going on &why arent you telling me everything?

cheryl had fun at kap today! whoooots. i realised that i'm not that close to you after all. & you're such a loser. you couldn't get in to zouk, that was bad enough. but you were laughed at when you went back to school. seriously, think about it. it's reallly so loser-ish.

i really want to do well for history and a math. but it seems like i'm going to flunk those two tests i took today. i reallly couldnt think, i wish i could just hide and cry and no one will notice me. one week till the day i see you once again. someone told me i'll see you next week, but honestly speaking i dont wish to see you. looking at you makes me more miserable, but if i dont see you i'll miss you so much. &this is called MIXED FEELINGS.

ohwelllos. i want EVERYONE to be happy. i know at this point of time, some may be sad. but cheer up okay? i'm just a call away if you didnt know :D cheryl will always be there for you and you could talk to me anytime. so long i'm not asleep. (:

i wish to thank someone personally but i'm afraid to. someone who i never knew would be close to me, well to me she's one great friend holding significance. if it wasnt for that someone, i wouldn't be so happy now. i'll probably be the worst person suffering from what i call, depression. you were there when i was down, you gave me the hope to make life more meaningful to me. &i really wish to say a BIG THANK YOU.

you'll never know who that person is :D ohwellls, i love amanda mak so much. she replied my letter so quickly! haha. and she made me smile. though i wasnt sad, but yes she did :D you were there for me too. hahaha.

nationals today, singles were alright. if you didnt bowl well, or rather not satisfied, there's still doubles, team event 1 and 2. don't worry people :D

i really hate _____. you chased me out of class today, wth. i'm off to study history and a math. <3

stop thinking that i trust you so much because i don't. that irritates me so much. if you're my friend, that doesnt mean i have to tell you EVERYTHING. cause i wouldn't.

okay, school was boring. i really hate ______. wth, she made me stand during class just because i was telling zhijing about some stuff RELEVANT to her lesson okay because she didnt understand. and i repeat, it's RELEVANT. we've told our form teacher about her already and i guess mrs cheong cant do anything about it. haha. she's quite funnny :D

english was pretty fun today. though zhijing and shanise ho left me. ohwellls, but it's alright. i had my dear VANESSA LEUNG. hahaha. we were talking about _____. HAHAHA. super funnny. i nearly died laughing. and i've got a shoutout for VANESSA LEUNG : IT'S ONLY THE MONTH OF MARCH, BUT DONT WORRY, THE MONTH OF SEPTEMBER IS COMING SOON :D

okayokay, it's quite funny. we're going to buy HELLO KITTY for someone. hehehehe. a super late birthday present, that is :D this is super fun. oh my, i'm going to tell dawn about it today if i can. i'm going to miss everyone tomorrow, cheryl's not going to be in school! oh no. <3

ilovemy file so much! :D i wrapped it with frigging nice wrapping paper. yay. now, i need to get the blooody plastic wrap thing which my sister lost. she irritates me. bleaugh. ohwellls. mondays are always fun. and today was reallly fun.

taugay, yvonne and i went to IMM to get b div presents! yay. they're so pretty. whooots, i rock. :D i have so much things to tell yvonne. she's nice to talk to. (:

sighsighsigh, sometimes i wonder what the hell am i waiting for. i seem to be obsessed with the song, you and i both by jason mraz. ohwellls. cheryl's down but at the same time, she can be high. she needs chocolates, but she cant have them cause of some stupid sore throat she never wanted. digress digress!

actually, i wanted to go to sa's house today but i thought since my dear cousin was coming, i shouldn't :D i saw amanda han qi today. whooots, iloveyou! <3>

okay, b div is in three days and i'm losing my voice. BLEAUGH, now how am i suppose to cheer? i have to get better somehow. &i'm proud to say that i'm inspired to be a writer. if i could, i would reallly be one :D i need to really think of where those two worksheets have gone. this is so frustrating.

the shadows of the past are of a bittersweet memory.

&you were drinking away;

♥ 12:13 AM

i wonder where i got that from :D had dinner at expo before spending $400 plus in the bookfest and watsons fair. yesyes, the things are frigging cheap. and everything's like nice? i think the reason why we spent so much at the watsons' fair was because we bought hell lot of foood. JUNK FOOD. hurhur. everything's so cheap. and they're my favourite! okay, digress please.

amanda is coming tomorrow,iloveyoudear! <3>

cause i'm gonna miss you like crazy;

♥ Saturday, March 18, 2006 12:41 PM

okay, i know how screwed i am. i havent finished my homework. i did hey math! whoots, i failed. bleaugh. it was hard, it really was. im so screwed. SHANISE HO TOO. i think i have some telepathy with you :D and thanks for being there for me last night asking what happened to me and everything. and of course, not forgetting VANESSA :D you talked to me the whole time. until you had to go cause someone may be hearing our conversation. hahaha.

iloveyouTWO. <3>

the tears i've cried;

♥ Friday, March 17, 2006 4:45 PM

sometimes when you're free, you'll look back and reflect on what you've done; i've realised that i've not studied this whole holiday now that it's already friday.

but thats not the point, i'm talking about friendship or rather, relationships. close relationships turning into sour ones. some may know what i'm talking about, some don't. whatever it is, dont get pissed with anyone. if there's something wrong between two of you,work it out. don't keep it in there, don't regret. there are so many things i would like to say, but the people who i want to talk to wouldnt hear me out. my explanations arent effective, they dont even want to hear them. it's pointless. there arent much communication, or maybe there's really nothing to say. sometimes, i feel that i can't pour everything out to you although you may be my relative. is this the way my life was meant to be? false assumptions you make, thinking that i wouldn't mind but it hurt so much. i just had to know what was going on.

after reflecting, i realised that i have many people who i would like to talk to and reconcile with. there's no point quarrelling over some stupid reason or maybe there isn't any reason. perhaps, a misunderstanding. they are unavoidable. the four walls i turn to every night, thinking about what my day will be tomorrow. but it never end up good. even if it did, the next day would be bad.

i wonder how many people i've talked about, it's countless. insecurity is what everyone fears. probably most, not all. even within your own family members, you can't trust anyone. sometimes, ignoring could be the best solution. but you can't always use that method, you cant escape.

honestly speaking, i really miss talking to you. i'm not referring to one, but all. something is just missing. and this is all caused because of one word, attitude.

it tore my heart apart;

♥ 4:33 PM

i'm high, whooots i wanna shop but i'm broke.

the radio is driving me nuts, &thats cause they've got nice music now. at this time when i'm sad, it made me happpy. HEHEHEHE.

i had lunch with dawn just now. hahaha.some guy yelled and she got this shock, it was just so hilarious :D

where are you now;

♥ Thursday, March 16, 2006 8:56 PM

i thought that i had given up, but today i realised that i've always been deceiving myself. umpteen times i tell myself, it doesnt work. maybe god is playing with me, there might be a blessing in disguise. i'm confused;disappointed. there's nothing i can say now, but to reflect on what others have been telling me recently.

lets digress &talk about today! :D it was fun, hope you like your birthday present sa <3

♥ Tuesday, March 14, 2006 10:40 PM

i promise, i will never forget this day, this minute this second that everything was caused by you.

iHATEYOU.

♥ 12:09 AM

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA LEUNG. ILOVEYOUSOMUCH <3>

though you're at camp, but you're missed :D

if your hearts not in it;

♥ 12:06 AM

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's overIt's the last thing that
I wanna hear

Chorus:
But if your heart's not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already goneIt's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away

If your heart's not in it
You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

Chorus:
If your hearts not in it, for real
Please dont try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already goneIt's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stayI'd rather walk away

If your hearts not in it
How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewin
dThere's nothing I can doTo stop from losing you
I can't make you change your mind
If your heart's not in it

Chorus:
If your hearts not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away

If your hearts not in it
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stayI'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

i've been deeply in love with this song :D

it's a fact we can't deny;

♥ Monday, March 13, 2006 11:50 PM

i wonder, are you hiding something from me? it was never likethis. i never expected things to be that way.

now, all i can do is to pray and that everything would go just fine tomorrow.

it's too sweet for you;

♥ Sunday, March 12, 2006 4:38 PM

you'll probaby die of diabeties(however you spell that) after you finish reading this story :D

A boy and a girl, the best of friends. Fromelementary to high school from beginning to end.Through all those years their friendship grew. Theyboth felt the same, but neither knew. Each wakingmoment since the day they met. They both lovedeach other sunrise to sunset. He was all she hadin her terrible life. He was the one who kept herfrom her knife. She was his angel, she made himsmile. Though life threw him curves, she made itall worth while. Then one day things went terriblywrong. The next few weeks were like a very sadsong. He made her jealous on purpose he tried.When the girl asked, "Do you love her?" onpurpose he lied. He played with jealousy like itwas a game. Little did he know Things would neverbe the same. His plan was working but he had noclue. How wrong things would go, the damage hewould do. One night she broke down, feeling veryalone. Just her and the blade, no one else home.She dialed his number, he answered, "Hello" Shetold him she loved him and hung up the phone. Heraced to her house just a minute too late. Foundher lying in blood, her heart had no rate. Besideher was a note, in it her confession. Her love forthis boy, her only obsession. As he read the note,he knelt down and cried. Grabbed her knife, thatnight they both died. She was found in his arms,both of them dead. Under her note his handwritingsaid: "I loved her so, she never knew. All this time Iloved her too." if u dont repost this in 20 minutes..u will lose the love of ur life n never get them back

i don't know you anymore;

♥ 3:32 PM

i was pissed and i still am. i've commited murder =X sometimes, it reallly irritates me that people get frustrated with me because i give them attitude. you ask stupid questions, and of course i'll be like how would i know? please, you're too traditional and old-fashioned. there is nothing wrong knowing guy as just friends, stop being paranoid and everything and saying that i'll get taken advantage of in McDonalds. please, grow out of your old-fashioness. it's already the 21st century, you're probably still living in the 16th or 17th century where everyone's so strict. i hate you, and i always will. i don't care if you're going to tell my mother about me but it hurts me for my own family member to make false assumptions of me. i'm no ordinary person, you choose to trust what your mind tells you. it wasnt my handwriting, i didnt write those crap. and you said it's the same handwriting. if you cant read words well, cant tell the difference between big and small, then i suggest you go back to school. be some primary school BIG kid. i don't care, you're just a frigging insensitive bitch. now, i'm proud to say that i'm not guilty and i'm not afraid of you anymore. live your life the way you want it, and i'll have peace and a better life definately.

anyways, i feel much better now. i simply can't wait for tuesday to come. my DINNER DATE withamanda &sa's birthday :D and thursday! nicholas's birthday. iloveyouthree! <3>

erase those memories;

♥ Saturday, March 11, 2006 11:57 PM

I SWEAR I'M NEVER EVER GOING BACK TO THAT HAIRDRESSER TO CUT MY HAIR, IT'S SO UGLY NOW. NO MORE PRETTY CHERYL ):

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY,although i will never forget this bad day.

and when you said to me;

♥ Friday, March 10, 2006 9:24 PM

i have thought it through, &i'm proud to say that i've come to a decision.

netball finals, we WON :D:D
lunched at pizza hut with hannah and shan after that, and we had a really long conversation. all our funny stories. ILOVEYOUBOTH! <3

i had a really long talk with hannah and i never knew i would have that talk with her :D
today was really fun. thank you! &of course, not forgetting our PEACEEFUL shanise.

my miracle;

♥ Wednesday, March 08, 2006 9:21 PM

sad songs i turn to, keeping you alive in my mind.

us against the world;

♥ Tuesday, March 07, 2006 8:23 PM

there was a song which i wanted to post the lyrics up today, but i forgot what song it was. it describes my life now. it's a misery &no one knows my future.

tuesdays are usually longer days than any other day because we've got chem practical. chem practical test went well today! whooots :D im glad everything went well. i'm going to study reallly hard everyday during the march hols. at least two subjects a day. i need to work on my chem and bio. chinese was quite fun today, dawn's sick mind and everything disgusts me terribly. i shan't say it here, but it was reallly gross.

i thought everything would be fine after a night's rest, but i was just living in a world of denial.

i reallly miss you;

♥ Monday, March 06, 2006 9:57 PM

i have no idea why but i suddenly felt that anxiety and excitment when i saw that whole group of them. the truth is, i reallly miss you even though i always say that i'm over you and everything. but that doesn't mean i can't live without you. I CAN OKAY :D:D thinking back, i really miss the past we had. and yes, i really do. i ain't kidding, it's true. we talked last night and it seems as if we havent talked for a long time. 24 hours hasnt even passed ):

okay, monday has always been fun. saw the love mg people today! hahaha. we had dinnnner with them last night. hahaha. sharing past experiences. & we were so nice to buy dinner for them! hahaha. the dinnner at kap with char and sa was super fun. we were like laughing. hurhur. anw, i reached home at about 10. this morning, went straight to the audi. saw them practise again. and had pe. it's fun, i know. played badminton. WHOOOTS. zhijing and i were like, GO GO GO FOR IT. playing with shanya and pammee was best can :D and i wouldnt forget, my doubles partner for sports carnival is MAGDALENE HO BAO QING, I LOVE YOU BOYFRIEND <3>

training today was quite depressing and demoralising though i had fun people at my lane who really cheered me up. esp lizhen and yvonnne. and of course, not forgetting audrey, gale and SARAH.haha. the cute lil' one. lizhen was like telling me, you know there was this guy who actually believed my friend when she said, okay fine! BYE. and she made that operator thing "this is the singtel......" super funnny. that guy is so dumb. i wonder who. &the "seeya" thing. messaging and asking, ARENT YOU COMING TO MY HOUSE? i was like, wth. so ego. oh my. i nearly died laughing :D

&of course yvonnne. haha. who cheered me up with her stupid lame jokes and encouragement which i must say, i apppreciate them. and her H20. hehehehe. i kept drinking. i was frigging thirsty. zhen was super excited to eat her kueh lapis that i was going to give her. I THINK I AM SUPER NICE AND SWEEET. my face tells it all, i'm high and ego at the same time, depressed. laughing is a sign of depression :D

the remedy;

♥ Sunday, March 05, 2006 12:03 PM

i have no idea why but i'm in love with that song :D:D

sunday again, i can't wait till next sunday. HOLIDAY ((: &march hols are going to be super packed for me. i'm definately gonna have my study group. then we will go to bugis and SHOP SHOP :D:D (quoted from my dear jiahui who dropped her ruler on chilli)

i'm excited for the things that are gonna happen later. i'm having dinner with char and sa later whoooots. then go back to school to watch love mg's band practice. good exposure. i'm EXCITED. yay. i'm gonna see SA and CHAR. they kinda rhyme.

but the bad thing is, i've got to finish all my homework first. BLEAUGH BLEAUGH. this is terrible. homework just errrks me. =X

keep it that way;

♥ Saturday, March 04, 2006 8:37 PM

i've been receiving praises these few days, &some peope have repeated them. i count it :D:D people say cheryl's prettier now, but i still think i look the same. hurhur. now, i'm afraid to cut my hair. bleaugh. on the other hand, i've been praising people too. hmmmms, perhaps only one or two; a handful. not much. but i've definately put in a good word for someone. &maybe, i've said too much. the argument came too fast, it was an immediate effect once i said it. i feel guilty,but if i had not warn you, you wouldnt know that such a thing would happen. &you being the dominant had to fight for it and not admit that you're wrong. accept facts will you?

tuition the whole entire day. AHHHHHHHHH... it nearly killed me. but i'm still alive :D tuition in the morning at 9. i was still sleeping when the bell rang. lunch was super goood. daddy's back and mummy's not. i went up to dad today and i said, " DADDY! WILL YOU BE HAVING LUNCH AT HOME? AND HE SAID NO. I SAID, AWWW MAN. WE'RE HAVING LAME CHOP" &cherlyn corrected me by saying, NO! IT'S LAMBCHOP! enough of that. thats old news. whats the updated one? :D:D

tuition again at 1. till about 5. yupyup. my very first tuition. super funny. omg. i nearly died laughing. did a math and then chem. chem to me now is quite easy. i finally understood. formulae isnt that hard after all aye? ((: the teacher is good la. his students are like what, from F9 to A1. wth. smart can. i want those grades. zhijing and i are going to request! with dawn and vanessa. vanessa suspected something today, and i told her everything. spill the beans, that was what she wanted me to do. and i actuallly did. i feel guilty. but vanessa agreed with me, in a way somehow :D amanda mak and vanessa now know what i'm talking about. ohoh. TAUGAY TOO (: i'm looking forward to another four hour tuition! it's super fun. i'm starving, dinner was superb. i am wondering, i'm jealous of vanessa. WHY DOES SHE GET PIZZA EVERYDAY? ):

there's love mg practice tomorrow. char and vanessa are going to watch them with me. only me. ohoh with sarah tooo. i wonder where they're gonna meet all of us.

&i shall end this post by saying, i pray hard that my wish would come true :D:D

take it or lose it;

♥ Friday, March 03, 2006 11:25 PM

training today was frigging fun :D:D bowled with audrey, sarah and vic.ng today. we were playing the "buy the drink" game. ohwellls. super fun. and then we had resetting of the counter and everything. haha. super cool. anyways, i've something to say.

it's not that i'm ignoring you or anything but sometimes, you've got to be aware of the way you carry yourself. i'm not against you or anything but give it a thought, do some soul-searching (which i know you wouldn't) and really think why others would say such unpleasant stuff about you. you say you want to do well, all determined but did you put in effort? if you did, your results would have been much higher. and stop complaining about it. you're a dominant, i know. i've got to understand that fact, but you don't have to push it and make things worst. at first, things were getting better. but i really have no idea what happened. but i just have something against you now. look at yourself before you talk about others. stop saying as if you're super pretty or something because you know you're not. you're described as a "havoc" person. i'm serious. it's not something new, this has happened in secondary one. ohwellls, i think i've said enough. i don't wish to say anymore to make it tooo obvious :D:D but i'm sure amanda mak would know what i'm talking about. i just poured everything out to her just now over our LONG conversation. hurhur. it's more of a PERSONALITY CRASH.

i changed seats with dawn today. okay, new environment and i'm proud to say that i understand better now. with the help of zhijing. for e math and chem. after like what mrs mag sim said, she'll be like, do you understand? if not, she'll explain it. haha. how sweeet. i'm gonna do better for CA2. yesyes. hahaha. i'm determined. love! <3

iloveyou 2m <3

♥ Thursday, March 02, 2006 9:05 PM

i forgot to say something. it's about jiahui :D:D

haha. today at kap, jiahui wanted to give me her ruler back to me. haha. she gave it to ME :D:D and yeah, cause i lost it and she found it. she took it out, and THREW IT INTO THE CHILL AND CURRY SAUCE. mag, eunice and i were like, OMG. JIA! hahah. and we bursted out laughing! HAHAHAHA. funny right? her reaction was super funny la.

there's another incident. when eunice dropped pammee's earphone into the chilli sauce. wth! hahaha. so many things dropped into the chilli sauce. HAHAHA. i'm done with this. love <3

hey girl, i wanna catch your wave ;

♥ 8:42 PM

cheryl's on the phone now. with amanda han qi. and i realised, she's taking part in the cheerleading competition. i just said something. hahahaha. everyone's pretty except _______. hahaha. i wonder who, i agree with my dear cousin :D:D

grace and eunice came over this afternoon. and so did douglas. DOUGLAS IS FRIGGING CUTE. hahaha. her freaked out seeing five girls in the car, including my sis and my grandmother. cute lil' boy :D i love you! <3.