now when you ask what my favourite band is, i'll say the exits.

" tick tock tick tock" ; time passes quickly.

as we look back, the shadows of the past are of a bittersweet memory. &i'm missing every small thing that has happened.

i was frustrated and pissed this morning and i know why i was feeling that way. and i started blogging crap. yesyes. im just too bored at home &reluctant to do my homework. tuition this morning was fun. i'm not supposed to watch tv, but i did. sorry amanda. dinner was great today! whoohoo. japanese food. super nice. haha. i liked cherlyn's meal more than mine. hurhur :D:D

pammee called me just now! so did vanessa. i missed you two truckloads. &i realised i havent been talking to my friends much this week. partly because i was sick. i've got to take my lit test next week. and there's going to be history and chem tests too. i'm gonna study hard. yesyes. and learn how to answer them right. i've not taken my medicine! OH NO. i'm just too paranoid. i'll take them later. you know what, i realise that people always message me and in the end, they never reply my message. bleaugh. amanda told me she fell asleep. ):
this week has been good and bad. i received compliments :D:D and i wonder what they are. go guess them out :D

one fine day, i'll walk out of this house. leaving everything behind and i'll start everything anew. thats my dream. i really want to. i can't stand the people living in here. it's torturous staying, but there's no where to go. the fierce cat fights, quarrels, arguments. everything that has happened in here for as long as i have lived. there's nothing to say now, because everything's in a mess. it's tangled up, unsolved. there's nothing much i can do but to just hope that everything will be okay soon.

there are just too many things going on. it's complicating. no one expected this. it's a boat that is spinning round like there's no tomorrow and it's drifting to who knows where. too many things to face at a point of time leads to confusion and tears.

they've been bottled up inside for a long time, and now it's time to let them all out.

as i walked into that quiet room, i hear my reverberating footsteps. my train of thoughts weren't distured. i was all alone. i started to reminisce about the memorable and sweet past we had. but now, there's completely nothing. not even a laugh, not even a smile. this song i hear, makes me think of you. i miss those times we spent together on the phone, till the early dawn. if only they would come back to me. but i wouldn't want to go through the pain i went through previously.

i wouldn't dare deny the fact that i still have feelings for you. but i've got to get out of my mundane routine one fine day. i'm getting too sick and tired of it.

i remember the time when lizhen said, "my boat is spinning and it's going no where" and she said mine wasn't spinning as much as hers. for now, mine's "spinning like there's no tomorrow". &perhaps we'll never find out why.

that song is nice. whooohooo :D woke up at 8.30 this morning and went back to sleep at 10. i'm terribly sick. and my voice. sometimes it's there, sometimes there's just no sound. and i feel like throwing up! bleaugh.

WHY ISN'T EUNICE ONLINE? i've got stuff to tell her.

we're going to have a filming and interview session this monday during our recess. OH MY. this is so cool. so, we'll have to play some song. haha. which is going to be LORD REIGN IN ME :D our best song. haahaha. we used it for both auditions. yesyes. this fliming and interview session thing is for love mg. i'm super excited! :D

i'm missing training. bleaugh. one week mc. thats bad. i've been sick the whole week! bad bad bad. i'll be well by next week to train! yesyes. and i'll have to give three MCs. cause they're all separated. yupps. there's lots of homework to do. and i have no idea how to do them. i'll do them later and tuition homework too. and i've got to study lit!

i'm going to have chemistry and a math tuition tomorrow. new tuition teacher! but it's a group study thing. but mum said it's good. so i shall go try it out. for about a month! if i improve, then i'll remain in that tuition. yupps. this is way cool. i'm excited for everything that is going to happen in the future! hahahahaha.

i realised something...

i realised.. that I HAVE DELETED ALL OF SOMEONE'S MESSAGES. good achievement aye? :D :D

the title came from the song! i'm listening to that song now. ohwellls. back from the doctor. and he gave me mc for tomorrow.

people are going to think that i pon trng. and seriously, i didn't expect myself to come on tues and thurs and not on mon, wed and fri. hhahaha. ohwellls. i need to get well before i can train! :D bleaugh. there's lit test tomorrow and i'm going to miss it. boohoo. ):

i'll probably take it next week. WEN IS PROBABLY GOING TO MISS THIS WHOLE WEEK OF SCHOOLL. which is bad. reallly really bad. hahahaha. she's so sick! get well soon wen :D

i read stuff this afternoon when grace came over. hhahaa. super funny blogs. i shan't say whose blog. but it's so childish! OH MY. and someone was acting cool. as i said, continue bitching and you'll be asking for trouble. HAHAHA. i doubt you read my blog. it appeals to TWO PEOPLE. hahaha. i wonder who! :D

i'm so bored! i'm going to have chem and a math tuition this sunday. yesyes. new tuition. it's a group thing. i can't stand it when i'm new and yeah. but i'll make new friends (:

not going to school tomorrow errks me. i'm going to be so bored at home. but at least, i get to study. and i've got my books. hahaha. so it's goood :D

blogs arent good but they're goood in a way. SIGHSIGH. i have no idea what i'm saying. but i'm really tired. the medicine is making me drousy ):

i've got a new sickmate! her name is EUNICE! :D iloveyoudear! <3!> hahahahaha. <3

thursday. it's a reallly bad day. back in school today. and i didn't give my mc! haahahaha.

i wonder if i'll be going to school on friday, which is tomorrow. ohwellls. i passed SS. bio test was SUPER HARD today. i think i'll get a freaking EGG. ): and a math was easy! HAHAHAHHAHA. careless mistakes made. ):

i was really sick in school today. AHHHHHHHH.... and mag sim made my condition worst! hurhur. she came in and started scolding us. saying that we're the worst class, blah blah blah... thats really bad. cough cough. flu again! BLEAUGH.

ohwellls. update later!

cheryl's not playing for b.div. now, it's time to concentrate on her studies and band! :D

BAND BAND BAND. i'll have time for practises. hahahaha. ohwells.

studied bio and a math already. it's super hard. but i'll try my best tomorrow.

not going to school today was really boring. bleaugh. pammee came just now! to give me my work! :D

hahahaha. I LOVE YOU DEAR! <3!

okay, it's 11.45 now. and poor cheryl is at home. bleaugh. why did she have to make friends with COUGH and RUNNING NOSE? :D

i'm sick once again. i just got rid of the irritating fever and now, i've got new friends. i better get well by tomorrow. and not pass the flu round everyone. thats why i didn't go to school. HAHAHA. but the problem is that, i can't ask mrs.cheong about bio and mrs gan about a math. there's a test tomorrow. heymath questions are hard. i'm going to do them. *cough cough* i hate flu! ): pammee must have passed it to me. HAHAHA. don't worry, i don't blame you. I STILL LOVE YOU! :D

woke up this morning, changed and i felt really sick. mummy said not to go to school. now, i've got to get her to write two parent's letters. one for trng and the other for mrs. cheong. i've seen a doctor. on sunday. they should accept both my mc and parent's letter. and to think that i've not given my mc yet! ): had to photocopy it what. and who knew that i wouldn't be in school today. i'm hungry. i should be having a math now. oh no! i've missed three periods of history! bleaugh. mrs ng probably thinks i don't wish to attend her classes. SHHHEESSSHH. i'm going to miss the fun. there's always funny stuff happening during history. and vanessa told me that monday's history class was funnny. some coffee beans and star bucks joke! yeah. hahaha. i don't know. i shall ask vanessa later. bleaugh. i'm going to miss trng again. i've got to train. I HAVE NOT BOWLED FOR so long. less than a week. but stil long. i'll bowl when i'm much much much better.

and for every trng i miss, i'll miss every chance to speak to zhen! hahahahaha. i'm so sorry. it's just that i keep making new friends. hahahaha. and taugay didn't call me yesterday.

for the very first time, no one called me neither did i call anyone. oh my! i didn't use the phone. hahahaha. cool aye? but i used the computer. yupps. haha. it's good enough. i was asleep at 10.45. i'm getting really tired each day. even though i had half a da sleep on monday. but it wasn't enough. i still had eye bags! there's a really funny "joke" about eye bags. hahaha :D

update later! <3>

thats what cool people do;

♥ Tuesday, February 21, 2006 5:44 PM

today's a HAPPY HAPPY DAY. and i have no idea why i'm so freaking happy. maybe because i'm back in school. everyone misses me. HAHAHAHA.

okay, i was late for school this morning. hurhur. was in school at around 7.05? yupps. and apparently, someone complained to me. hahaha. e math was first. i understood! :D a math was next and i didnt have to do my error analysis test. HAHAHA. yay. chem lab. went through techniques for titration. it's super fun. oh my. hahaha. the drops of hydrochloric acid. hahaha. SUPER FUN. and the changing of colour. hehehehehe.

stayed back during recess to do the qu yuan thing for CME. i'm the fishermen! :D and our songs are super cute and cool. HAHAHAHA. bio was next. i didn't do my work. bleaugh. but i was kinda lost. so yeah. i'll go study later and clarify my doubts with mrs.cheong tomorrow. english was super fun. went to LT 2. got back compre and compo. and i only improved by one mark for compre. sighsigh. i've got to work hard for english. i want at least a B3. yesyes. chinese was next. i didn't do my zhou ji. bleaugh. that was really horrible. but lao shi said to pass it up tomorrow. i'll put it at her shelf. yuppps. and having photocopied my mc, i wouldnt have to worry about giving one mc to two teachers. mrs cheong thought i misunderstood her when i said that i'll give her my mc tomorrow. she was like, nonono. dont be mistaken. i wasn't pinpointing you. it's just that some people didn't give me their MCs. haha. i was like, haha. it's okay. i didn't intepret it the wrong way. HAHA. she's so nice :D

grace, jia and eunice just left! bleaugh. why didn't they stay longer? boohoo ( i noticed i haven't used this word for a long time) studied a little bit of bio with grace while the rest were chilling out. turning on the music and stuff. we were listening to S CLUB 7. haha. cool aye? and selecting songs for our band to play. without love mg, we wouldn't be choosing songs. hahaha. i'm really happy. i'm serious. and we even have thoughts about joining battle of the bands when it's at the end of the year. we're just too excited. and we were worrying about competition against the sec.fours. bleaugh. in any way, we're going to worship and give praise. thats cool :D

okay, i think i better go now. bath time! time to smell nice! :D:D <3!

tell me that there's nothing going on between the two of you.

♥ Monday, February 20, 2006 8:01 PM

i regret everything )):

be my escape;

♥ 2:26 PM

im obsessed with the song catch your wave by click five :D

i didn't go to school today. and seriously, having high fever isn't very fun. i couldn't get out of bed today. everything was so faint, and i couldn't move. slept till 1.20. look how tired i am. and i've got to do my work later. bleaugh. there's bio and lit test this week. and i havent studied.

douglas called when i was sleeping. and he told me to drink LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF WATER. cute kid. and i realised that he knows xingting. this world is small and black. i'm so bored at home. my head hurts. ahhhhhhh... i hate it when i'm sick. but the good thing is, that i wouldn't need to go to school. HAHAHA. i've got to get well soon. i hope i can go to school tomorrow. imagine how much homework is going to pile up if i'm not going to school the next few days.

i was on the phone with vanessa last night. and she was telling me about the prank calls she had. that really made my temperature to be much lower. hahaha. then taugay called. taugay was super funny also. but i was darn tired,i fell asleep after that phone call. HAHAHA. my throat is super painful. bleaugh. AHHHHHH... i hate being sick! ):

i'm going to rest today. and maybe study later. yeah. that's if i can take it. ohwellls.

there's only one these words are going out to;

♥ Sunday, February 19, 2006 5:18 PM

WE GOT INTO LOVE MG. and for once, iris and elvina thought i was mad. HAHAHA. CHAR WAS SUPER HAPPY. EVERYONE WAS. and we still are. (: GRACE WENT HIGH. EUNICE WAS SHOCKED? hahahaha. CHER WAS HAPPPY. VANESSA WAS DARN HAPPY. oh my. we're going to be an official band! :D

♥ 4:04 PM

FRIDAY
i bowled really badly for trng. and mrs leong didnt come for lesson. and we ended up playing guitars during her period. HURHUR. nothing much about friday. but it wasnt a really nice day. but i was frigging excited for fun o rama.

SATURDAY
saturday was fun. but i was blooody busy. okay, i had tuition at 8.15 in the morning. i was supposed to end at 10.15 but i had to leave for dental appointment. i thought dental was at 11. bloody hell. i rushed down to the dental clinic. and oh my. the tightening of braces nearly killed me. the inserting of some small little thing made my mouth sore. bleaugh. went home! mum gave me a lift to kap to meet mag agnes grace eunice and taugay to go fun o rama together! upon reaching acjc, we bought food! HAHA. ice cream also have! and i spent my money on food. i met tong! i finally got my PINK DAISY! (: yay! :D:D it was a super hot day. until it rained. before that, i met charlene and clarence. for the very first time, i became a babysitter. hahahahaha. ohwells. brought her around. then agnes sent us home! she followed us for dinner. okay, i think she got me into quite big trouble. all i have to do, is to pray hard that my parents don't ask me anything. yesyes. had dinner at cafe cartel. then went to precious thots to get stuff. mum bought me a new bracelet. it's super nice. walked around. bought stuff. went to food court for dessert. sent charlene home. and we went home. now, we've got to bring her fishes to school on tuesday. bleaugh.

SUNDAY
ohwellls. sunday, woke up having fever. went to see doctor. and i slept for the whole morning. such a pig. woke up at 2 plus having porridge and i ate my medicine! hahaha. i'm not going to school tomorrow. bleaugh. i've got to rest :D and im gonna study. yesyes. i'm so guai. i know. hurhur.

when you believe;

♥ Thursday, February 16, 2006 5:13 PM

today's thursday! i didnt blog yesterday. i shall blog about it.

wednesday
total defence day celebration was funny. OHWELLLLS. pammee and shanya, YOU MADE MY DAY. hurhur. went back to class, unfortunately mrs cheong wasnt in school and mrs leong took the whole period doing english. and apparently, i fell asleep. and she kinda scolded me. im so sorry. but i was really tired. lit was after that. we did solid lit! I LOVE LIT. :D

training yesterday was bad. i bowled badly. im serious. ohwells. i know im not gonna to play this year. ohwells! it's okay. there's still next year. i know the seniors are good. so yeah. (: i should focus on my studies and just try to get used to the fact that i have to do my homework everyday and i cant slack anymore. yesyes. sec.three is tough. super please. it's hard. i know. concepts you cant understand makes you mad. so, all the more i should just NOT SLACK, NOT BOWL and CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDIES. pammee came over last night! yesyes. cause she lost her worksheet for history. so, i told her to come over and she did. she did the assignment with me. of course, we wrote it in a different way.

thursday
e math was the first lesson we had. i was super tired today. i have no idea why. miss tang came to talk to me today. and she thought i was having problems in math. so, i should go revise my work during the weekends. and if i'm unsure of anything, i should go ask her. yuppps. bio practical was fun today! the disintegrating of liver made the whole science lab be diffused with the unpleasant smell. jiayi nearly pucked. and apparently, dawn said the liver was gross. she has never used liver when she eats steamboat. how sad right. but anyway, i dont like liver too. HURHUR. it's so CHEWY. ewww.. hahaha. but it was FUN! :D super duper fun. lalalala. chemistry was after bio. all the sciences. i've got to work harder. and not fail any tests anymore. ive failed e math, chinese, chem. thats bad. bleaugh. im sad. ): ive got to study harder. now, how am i going to get my mother to sign? it's so frigging bad. after recesss, it was history! WE WENT THROUGH STALIN AGAIN. he's a cunning man. scheming and he plays with politics. i remembered! :D i listen in class. whooohoo. hurhur. a math, i know how to do my work. and the word discriminant became DISCRIMINATE. whooops! i was like, oh no. okayokay. i was so dumb! bleaugh. lit again! it was fun. but apparently, mrs choo was explaining it too fast till sonya slowed her down! hahaha. lit was fun. YESYES.

went to kap after school to study. ohwells.i can't do math. i've got personal messages!

EUNICE : don't be too sad yeah? cheer up dear! :D

PAMMEE: get well soon! hahaha.

VANESSA: you get well soon okay. hahaa. then you can be lively again to talk to me and tell me your WONDERFUL STORIES. hurhur. hmmmms. tell me how i can make you feel better! actually, i know how :D you know what im thinking.

in my darkest hour;

♥ Tuesday, February 14, 2006 9:45 PM

hellohello. it's VALENTINE'S DAY TODAY! HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY :D:D

i received a total of 13 flowers today! i think. no, it's 14. hahaa. and super hell lot of chocolaates. im gonna be fat! bleaugh. never mind, it's okay for cheryl. hahahaha. my table was like, 1/2 full. oh no. that was really bad. but i felt so loved! went round distributing flowers today! hahaha. it was fun. and zhijing promised to get me a bouquet of roses on monday! hahaha. i gave her the weekend to get it. HAHAHAHA. i feel so mean. but she agreed to it. so YES, i'll get them. I HOPE SHE BUYS THEM FOR ME! :D:D

hahahaha. nothing much today. just an ordinary day. hahahah. we won for the class decoration thing. HAHAHA. we thought 3i was going to win, but in the end, we were the winners. okay, i wonder how they judged but ohwells, we did well! THANK YOU 3M :D especially those who really stayed back during recess and after school to decorate! hahaha.

let me tell you what happened in school today. WE HAD FIRE DRILL IN THE MORNING. and like, this teacher was asking me and shan what class we were from. and we said 3m. and she was like, okay. here's the fire spot! that was frigging funnny. im serious. we kinda like talked to the fire!? ahahahaha! :D:D super hell funny. everyone seemed happy that there was a fire. WTH. hahaha. at the carpark, we chit-chatted. it was so fun until we had to return to our classes. a math. i dont like. ): then it was chemistry. chem was fun. but the theroy part was boring. i nearly fell asleep okay. i am lacking of a GOOD GOOD SLEEP. i shall sleep early tonight! :D hahaha. i redemmed my flowers during recess! hahahaha. bio was after recess, but mrs cheong wasnt here. mrs leong took her period to do english comprehension. YES. hahaa. this time, it was easier. hahaha. yay! chinese was after that. did zuo wen, and apparently, our group was the ones speaking the loudest. 3i can really keep quiet please. wahlao. i can stand the quietness. bleaugh. i hate chinese, i dont know anything about it. and the lao shi is not doing anything. ohwells! ): i need to improve tremendously. i've got to pass the next test.

hannah came home with me today! hahaha. then she had to leave at 4 plus. then eunice and jia came. OKAY, I FORGOT THAT I HAD TUITION TODAY. oh no! i had one hour of tution. and in between, shan came! hahaha. then mag! :D hahaha. oh yay! we had our circle of nine gathering without grace, pam and agnes. we've got to have one soon. HAHAHA. ilovecircleofnine. but it seems like we're falling apart. ): we've got to be close close together! I FEEL LIKE ADDING VANESSA IN. but there's a lot alr. ohwell. we've got to eat breakfast together every morning okay? :D hahaha. i bought a balloon today! for VANESSA and she bought for ME! :D hahaha. we watched cinderella story halfway just now. haha. eunice and shan had dinner. and my, we had hell lot of fun till we did something. but, i feel really good now! ahahaha. having clarrified all my whatever shit i had to do. ohwells. but i lied again, im so sorry. but i had to. if not, you'll probably ask why i ignored you.

lets digress about it. yesyes. there's history tomorrow! im excited. trng too! :D:D and ive got to do my chinese homework though there's no chinese tomorrow. ohwells! thats bad ):

everyone's jealous because i have much more flowers than them! HAHAHAHA. i know you're jealous, but i'm being LOVED! hehehehehe. okay, i'm high. but tireed. bleaugh. what a weird combination. byebye! <3!

even though you're far away

♥ Saturday, February 11, 2006 9:44 PM

hello hello once again. saturday has been a fruitful day for CHERYL :D:D

woke up early and apparently, mummy's gonna change phone tomorrow. most probably. i wanna get my new phone! (: my plan's ending. hahaha. and i should be getting a new one! yay! :D:D i'm happy. be happy for ME (: i bathed and hurrried out of the house. I WAS MEETING VANESSA,SHANYA AND CHAR AT KAP THIS MORNING, and i was like 20 minutes late! hahaha. I AM SO SORRRY DEARIEHS. anyway, i ate pancake. vanessa couldn't finish hers, and i became a rubbish dump for a while.

headed to alvron studio after that for our jamming session. once again, it's COOL :D:D the bottom keyboard wasnt working again. wth. but never mind. the top one was. (: shanya made us laugh. she brought joy into our playing. the smiles and everything. HAHAHAHA.

came home after that, i studied! did my math halfway and i fell asleep! hahaha. wth. from 3.15 to 6.45. i rock please. clapclap. dinner was goood. CURRY CHICKEN. haha.

there's tea party tomorrow! I AM EXCITED. dear douglas and nicholas are coming over. yay! with natalie and nicole also. hah. i dont play with them but never mind. haha. my COUSINS too. hurhur. it's time to collect red packets again :D:D

heaven knows;

♥ Friday, February 10, 2006 9:37 PM

friday finally. end of the week. there's a JAMMING SESSION tomorrow. i rock don't i? we're going jamming once again :D:D

today wasnt very fun due to the fact that we had a chemistry test. bleaugh. it was bad, i promise. i'm so going to fail it. A math, i thought mrs gan wouldnt come in, but she did in the end. and we were assigned work to do. miscell ex.3. sighsigh. i seriously suck at LOGARITHMS. i hate it. but i've got to LOVE it as much as i love my darn guitar! okay. i was bored. chinese today, i think i'm going to fail the test. I DIDNT SEE THE COLUMN. damn. if not, i would have completed my paper luh. DARN IT. i'm going to read the newspaper this time, and try to get fulll marks! yesyes. english today, went through comprehension. i fell asleep. MRS LEONG IS SO FUNNY. vanessa fell asleep in her class, and she found out la. and she's like, wake her up. vanessa woke up and mrs leong said, thank you. hahaha. in a very cute manner! hahahah! :D:D

e math is driving me nuts. i know how to do the questions, but i don't know why i cant do when i'm at home. only when miss tang explains, i'll understand the whole thing! okay, i know you're probably going to think i'm weird. but thats just ME :D

i bowled badly for roll-offs. i'm not going to play for b.div. it's alright. all things happen for a reason. god planned it that way. no one can change it. all i hope now is to get in for st.luke's hospital concert. and lovemgs. thats my goal.

i just don't love you no more;

♥ Thursday, February 09, 2006 8:13 PM

thursday! finally. tomorrow's friday. thats the end of the week. saturday, band practice again. hurhur.

history test today was not very good. i couldn't really remember all my points. but well, i had time to check this time. half a minute to check. how good is that please. at least got improvement :D:D auditions for bittersweet symphony was after school. we were told that the teachers were impressed because we were told yesterday that auditions was just tomorrow. okay, we didnt have much time to practice. (: and we didnt well? only that the keyboard was freaking screwed up. i'm serious. it wasnt our fault. i want to get in! :D we practiced okay. like, twice only! hurhur.

roll offs yesterday wasnt goood. im going to bowl better tomorrow! yesyes. without any distraction. i want to get in for BITTERSWEET! :D:D ilovemybandsomuch! <3!

because of you.

♥ Tuesday, February 07, 2006 12:02 AM

monday is not a very good day for me. monday blues :D had chapel in the morning. it's super good. (: the bass guitar was cool. i'm serious. COOL MAN, WHATEVER. hurhur. go watch i not stupid too and you'll understand! P.E. was fun! whoooohoo. we played game. and i'm seriously convinced that i have a slow reaction. bleaugh.

recess, i didnt eat much. nuggets! i ate nuggets. chinese was terrible. i fell asleep. i kept falling asleep. i'm serious. it's not that i want to sleep but i was really very tired. after netball and everything. i'm very scared for test tomorrow. i think i need chinese tuition. oh no. it's really bad. a math, i passed a math test! i'm super happy. i could have gotten full marks. blooody hell. but never mind, dad and mum said i could improve one or two marks the next test. hahaha. that was taken from I NOT STUPID TOO. sigh sigh. it was really sad. i cried like 6 times la. i think i have a soft heart. thats why i'm so nice! :D

bio was kinda fun. grace was telling me stuff. and planning. wth. haha. she's like, i want you two to go out! hahahah. stupid can. let's see what she's going to do. hurhur. history was FUN FUN FUN! :D now i know how to answer test hypothesis questions! and i'm really going to score for this one. i better do my L5 answer again. and this time, write faster.

training was tiring i know. i bowled a shitty 124. then the next game. 8/ X X X then i forgot. training was over. wahlao. i think i need to work on my pin 10 sparing. yesyes. and my pin 3 6 10 sparing. my pin 7 and 2 4 5 sparing is good. (: someone told me something today. ohwells. and i have a personal message for you.

i know you read my blog. you don't understand what i mean. you think it's not you, but please, read in between the lines. think of what you've said. don't be ironic. you say it couldnt be you, but it is you. you've said something bad about someone. apologise to her personally will you? i know she's not that kind of person. you always think you're right. but have you thought whether you may have gone wrong somewhere. i'm not talking to you or rather, dont want to talk to you because you get angry over the slightest things. you've got to accept the fact that if you treat me as your best friend, i wouldnt treat you like one. cause i have other friends. as i said, it's a personality crash. i may mean so much as a friend, but you may mean just a friend to me. i have nothing to say if you still deny the fact that i'm talking to you cause truth is, i am. i know it hurts. but thats the way things should be. someone told me that even if you were to apologise to my friend, i shouldnt talk to you. well, i dont wish to be mean or whatsoever. and if you really want to know LALALA then just say la. i will willingly give you his email and friendster url for you to add him. i have no say in this. you want a reconcilation, but is it possible? honestly speaking, i don't think we should be close. because both of us live in two different worlds.

it's just not meant to be.

♥ Sunday, February 05, 2006 10:20 PM

all i have to say is that you never fail to make me happy.

it's all over between us.

today was fun. we watched i not stupid too. but i'm still sad.

god knows why.

iloveyou<3

♥ 12:09 AM

first of all, i should say, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARENCE. you're 15 now. (:
i feel so young. bleaugh. it's 10 months and a few weeks to my birthday?

i didn't blog yesterday. neither did i blog the day before yesterday. it's 12.10 now.

i'm a HIGH I. (: i'm an advisor and a visual learner. we did some personality test on friday. it was kinda funny. training yesterday! i bowled a 169 game. one game only. bleaugh. but my strikes werent solid strikes. so like, i've got to work on my pocket! :D

today! we went to a JAMMING STUDIO. man, it's super cool. we were like some REALL BAND. i think we're gonna rock the town with our music.i'm serious. we're like good, in my opinion. and the drums were good too. CHAR WAS THE BEST. i must say. THREE CHEERS FOR CHAR. :D her bass guitar was cool. and sarah's electric guitar. hurhur. according to VANESSA, " char and sarah looked so cool with their electric guitars and cheryl looked cool too. only because the keyboard was bigger than her! haha and grace and eunice looked cool with their mikes and also cause they blended in with the background behind them. it was a red cloth with white polka dots on it and grace and eunice so happen to be wearing red and white respectively!! haha. i looked cool too! please. don't believe vanessa. the keyboard was JUST NICE for me okkay. i'm not that small you know. hurhur.

JAMMING IS FUN. i want ANOTHER ROUND. which will be on tuesday! i'm excited. whoooohooo. just came back from amanda's house. we gambled. i won for MAHJONG! and amanda won blackjack. blooody hell. i lost money. but i think i won it back. not sure. (: dinner was as funny as the lunch we had together. nicholas han was super corny. wth. he was imitating the chingay people dancing. like jellyfishes. HAHAHAHA.

i'm going out tomorrow! yay! (: lunch with char,eunice,vanessa and grace today at beauty world plaza was super good! MCDONALS. hurhur. i'm excited for our next jamming session! :D <3.>

you're just a suckerfish, get a life bitch.

♥ Thursday, February 02, 2006 10:13 PM

i'm utterly disappointed. i'm pissed. i'm anything that describes anger. some good mother just aggravated the problems i'm having now.

please la. i'm on the phone because of something. there's a reason you know. i dont call people for nothing. perhaps when i'm bored la. but can't blame me what. nothing to do. wtf is her problem la. you say i'm not improving in my studies. the year BARELY started. and we havent gotten back our tests. besides history. so far, i've paassed EVERYTHING. isnt that all you want? just a pass is good enough for you. you're not worth THAT MUCH. what shit is this. a mother is already giving me a headache. now, i have a blooody irritating sister, who is so gullible and easily influenced. she wants to be cool, but please, look at your face can die already la. your best past-time is scold people. you're not my mother for goodness sake. stop ordering me around. stop being such a suckerfish and start sucking up to all of the cousins and acting nice and pretending you like this, just like them. PLEASE, you're not suited for that. stop acting like some rich brat. you're just so irritating. someone who gets on my nerves. you can't watch tv, but i can. it's not my problem that you can't watch what. you didn't do well. watch more and you'll fail all your subjects. that'll be how nice. whatever it is, i need the years to pass faster so that i can get out of here and get more freedom.

GRACE IS KINDA SCARED NOW. hahaha. cause i have DRASTIC mood swings. hurhur. thats bad. heh. later, i'll be super happpy! :D:D lalalala. pammee was so cute in class today! :D hahaha. history lesson.

mrs ng asked what the political term was used to describe the word self-centered, and pammee said, politically self-centered! HAHAHAHAHA. super funny. oh no. i nearly died laughing. hahaha. and pammee's like, not funny. cause i was sitting next to her. HAHAHAHA :D

i'm so bored. had theroy lessons after school today. i'm proud to say that i learnt something! hehehehe. went to kap after that to meet grace, eunice and shan. met vanessa at the bus-stop. :D we went back to my house to practice for LOVEMGS auditions. yuppps. we're so keen. the right attitude! :D we rock don't we? but it's okay if we don't get in. we'll be alright.

i talked to vanessa just now! whooohoo. i'm happy! now, back to depression mode. [cause there's no more vaneesa]

i am sorry;

♥ Wednesday, February 01, 2006 6:53 PM

i forgot what i wanted to say. bleaugh.

i'm dreading schoool. but now, i think i'm getting the hang of A MATH. (: i can solve quadratic equations. yesyes :D i rock please. *CLAP CLAP*

last night was a total scare for me. lalala. i was so sad. but i think i became high when iris did that "fortune telling" of hers. wth? she was telling me who i'm going to date and everything. quite funny. but, i didn't laugh. only the first few questions were funnny :D

i pretended to sleep last night. heh. cause i was on the comp, and it was already 11.30. i remember. mum and dad were playing mahjong with grandmummy and daddy. and they stopped at the time when i wanted to talk to pammee. so, i preteneded to sleep. i was waiting for daddy to go upstairs, but he didnt till like 12.30? wth. so, at 11.48, i decided to switch off my computer and say byebye to PAMMEE and IRIS. lucky, iris had to go! :D hahahaha. I OWE YOU ONE SONG DEARIEH. when i clicked the TURNOFF button, guess what happened? HAHAHAHA. clarence sent a message, and i automatically went OFFLINE. it was quite funnny. cause like, suddenly got some pop-up, and i'm like. OHOH. it's clarence! and it went off. HAHAHA. i'm SO SORRY. (:

that wasn't it. i couldn't get to sleep. i wanted to call someone, but everyone seemed to be sleeping. I KNOW I COULD CALL PAMMEE OKAY. wth. i know she was awake! waiting for ME to come online again. i think. HEH. :D

i dread school. blooody hell. it's not fair that acsi has an EXTRA HOLIDAY today. they should share all their holidays with US since we're their sister school. hurhur. but thats quite impossible. i was quite sad in school today. i kinda like, DREADED IT. thats why. and grace was kinda scared. cause during english right, we sat at the quadrangle. grace, shanya, VANESSA and I were seated down on the benches. grace and shanya were telling me stuff. i shant say. yupps. and i was quite scared la. cause i thought they were talking about me. but honestly, i'm joining for the right reason. i hope grace reads this. and they got kinda scared cause my eyes went a lil' teary. and the whole day, grace was like ARE YOU OKAY? stuff likethat. i feel like a PRINCESS! :D cool la. okay. thats about it.

recess was fun man. had some discussion thing till someone came. i'm sorry but you're changing. i never knew you were that way. and please, stop saying that you don't want to talk to me. cause if you want it that way, i can grant you your wish. okay, i was kinda pissed off at first. I THINK MY ACTING SKILLS ARE GOOD MAN. i had grace, shanya, eunice and vanessa foooled. oh my. i rock don't i? :D i shant say it here if not someone will see it. hurhur. i feel so mean.

but if thats the way you're going to treat me, then i suggests we shouldnt be friends. it's a personality crash. it wouldnt be fair to both of us. cause you get angry at the slightest things. some people would know who i'm talking about, some wouldnt. how about yourself? look at yourself first before you talk about others. you say others are two-faced, hypocrites. how about yourself? you're so ironic. or are you just dumb? you badmouth my very good friend to me, and please, you have brains to think that i'll tell her right. and you even wanted her to be in your band. please, you don't like her and you want her to be in your band. what an ironic thought. i give up on you. you could be angry with me, i don't care. now, it's up to you if you still want to be friends. it's alright losing a friend like you. rather than losing all my friends just because of a hypocrite like you. i'm sorry but you really do need an attitude change. my friends forgave you time and time again, you were stubborn; you didnt change. we're just too forgiving. i hope all i've said will just knock some sense into you.

training was bad. i didn't bowl well. ohwellls. i'm back. but anyway, i think i better go eat and study a math! (: there's a test tmr. and the only thing i don't know is exponential equations. i'm going to be guai tonight. it's BATHING TIME. <3