we're not fated ;
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Thursday, January 26, 2006
4:20 PM
i realised something. I HAVENT BLOGGED FOR TWO DAYS. thats something new. thats partly because i have been so busy every day and night. it's so irritating. all the tests, open book or not, i'm still AS BUSY.
tuesday
had lunch with zhijing, mag, esther, melissa and fang at golden rooster. man, the food was good. i think the food there is not bad. but my cosy corner serves BETTER food. i promise you, go try alright. (: chinese test was okay. rather tricky. i didnt understand the first question! HAHAHA. what a stupid fool. got back our chinese 7 eleven test and oh my! i'm satisfied with myself. 31/50. i know it's not very good. but hahaha. thats the best 7 eleven test i ever did. HURHUR. cause i never read the book. went home after lunch. i was a good girl. studied for e math test. and surprisingly, i started crying. i'm super stressed out. i can't really cope. i don't understand math. it's so tiring. it's so hard. i don't get anything. i'm in need of math tuition. ARGH. the pressure is killing me. i want to do well in EVERY TEST. regardless of whether it's a open book or whether it's counted. i want to do well.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA! <3>
wednesday
yesterday! hahahaha. it wasnt a really good day though. e math test was perfectly okay. (: i hope i do well, which i think i wouldnt. cause i know i've not hit my target mark. it's super confusing. and the answers are like, THERE ARE SO MANY. and we have no idea whose answer is correct. ohwells. it's already over. what can i do? NOTHING. had training yesterday. i saw like eh. people? yuppps :D:D we bowled game. 169,151, 149. my games were better than the previous time we played game. and i seriously think i need to improve. and yes, taugay said i had some undercover ways to bowl that welll in the first game. i was just LUCKY? nothing else. (:
cheryl misses YOU. and i wonder who the YOU is. i consists of MANY PEOPLE. iLOVEMAG. i really do. oh my. everything's going to be okay dearieh. (: <3! too many things have happened this year. and to think that the year just started a month ago. four weeks of school, the things that has happened. it's uncountable. sadness and happiness. the tears shed. only for one person, the person they love most. it's not worth it. SIGH. mag was like, you always tell others that, but you don't apply it to yourself. it's really very weird. but sorry, sometimes it just gets out of hand and i cant get anything right. like math, plus people nagging at me. i get irritated and annoyed and everything that makes me mad. i'll just BREAKDOWN. i'm serious. don't try. it's really hard to not think of someone. a close friend perhaps. it was a BAD DAY. yesyes. i know. loads of work. history newpaper article. plus, i have to study history. and then maybe chem. but in the end, i didnt study chem at all. i was on the phone with vanessa till 11.30. thats when my mum called to ask me to hang up. grrrs. so irritating. but in the end, i studied history. and did my PREPARATIONS. wednesday wasnt a really nice day. I AM ANGRY :D
TODAY!
chem and history test was a big big big SAD thing. chem was tricky and i'm quite scared that i may fail. it's super tricky. i nearly died. bleaugh. it's open book but the book didnt even help! wth is this? it's like, NOT OPEN BOOK at all. blooody hell. i shouldnt be so 'VULGAR' and i have to control myself to using the word 'DAMN'. history test was BAD. i couldnt finish my paper. 20 mins was all i had and i guess, i spent tooo much time on the socio-economic problems. it's super fast. it's like, time just went by in a flash! and soon, she was like, you have 5 mins more. and i was only ending the second point. i had one more LONG point to write! and in the end, i couldnt finish my last point. which was WORLD WAR ONE. russian's involvement in the WORLD WAR 1. it's so irritating. i don't want to fail. i had my L5 answer done. i can't possibly fail. that means there's something wrong with me. which is NOT TRUE. bleaugh.
it's so tragic. we're not fated. i'm serious. we're just NOT FATED. i've promised to not think so much. and just do work and only work. i have to resist that temptation of LALALALA. i shant say. i think someone's pissed with ME. ): okay. digress about it.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRACE! <3
everyone's at the I NOT STUPID TOO movie. i can't call them! never mind, i shall sleep. (: <3!
